my book.

i think i'm going to change my book up.

i added a prologue last night. about stories. & that what they're about to read is my story. i'm excited. i'm also thinking about making it my senior year in college. & the climatic conflict is that Hayley gets into it with Coleton & they decide they shouldn't talk anymore. He gets a girlfriend (i know, i know...sounds familiar) and she gets hurt. So she decides they shouldn't talk anymore. Tells him that. They have a conversation & then they send each other like one line, real short, letters ever so often. & then on her graduation day he shows up. confesses his love for her & they live happily ever after :). i think i like this ending better. 

i want to finish this book. i want to get it published. for real. it's a goal, a dream. 

God you are incredible. how you are breaking me down inside so that i may see that i only need You. you & that's it. that nothing else matters. the future, my past, relationships, friendships, school...NOTHING- it's just me & You Father. & that's enough. that is MORE than enough. i want to sing of your love forever. i want to praise your name with every breath. i can't imagine a life without Your love, or how i could live & see the stars & the moon, or the morning dew, or the ray of sunshine gracefully falling upon your world...in this deprived & lonely world...You are the only reason why i can see such magnificent beauty. thank you for giving me eyes...& ears...& my heart. I love you Lord.