this is it.

I really would love to write- thoroughly write -about what goes on in my life & in my head when it comes to my relationship with God here.

lately i have been thinking a lot about my future husband, go figure right? & i have all these things: young life, music, likes cats...yada yada yada. but is that really important? should any of the matter? i was thinking about how God has this guy planned for me. & how He has this incredibly moment when we will either (1) meet or (2) figure out it's who we are supposed to be with. and shouldn't all that matter is that man loves Christ. that that man will love Christ passionately, with a fire so deep & bright that it will burn within me as well. that every day of that unknown man he will love, serve & worship God more than he will ever love, serve & worship me. does that make ANY sense whatsoever? 

i just can't wait to find him. i can't wait to talk & discover every part of each other's heart. that we make plans. & hold hands. & drive together, with the windows down & music so loud it drowns all our fears. that i will trust a man WITH my heart. & trust that he won't leave. that he will be a man of God that will lead me & secure me, but that has his heart hidden in Christ. 

oh God...lead me to him.